I started this blog as a rebrand. I’ve always really enjoyed blogging. And in fact, there when blogging was a fun hobby and nobody was making big money off it, I had met some cool people through blogging- some of whom I am still friends with today. Then it became just one big commercial.

I couldn’t compete. I did a couple sponsorships, but everything was so artificial. I didn’t like it. I kept blogging mostly just for me.

Then I missed it, and I wanted to try again! But a lot had changed and I found myself continuing to keep my old blog up, but I wasn’t feeling it. So I started something new that better reflected my current situation and all that had changed since Fun Breakfast Friday.

Now though, I find myself not writing. I’ve had this blog again since November, but this is my first post. I find it almost futile. Everything is AI now. And much better than anything I can do. I have to remind myself that the goal isn’t to do it well but rather to do it at all. Sometimes thought it feels pointless.

That scares me. I don’t want to feel that way. I want to keep writing and painting and drawing and dreaming. I think about my blogging journey and how when my life changed, it became more difficult to write within the old frame of my blog. And now, life is changing and I’m having a hard time writing at all.

So here I go. I’m looking at it as an exercise in rebellion and resistance to the AI takeover. The things I’d really like it to do, it can’t do. And when I occasionally do use it, I feel guilty. Do I adjust with these changing times or do I abstain? We’ll see.

For now, I’ll blog. And paint. And spend the evening in the backyard with my children as often as I can.